This post is not about dying, it is about living. It is for all the powerful people who learned how to live due to challenges in life. Faith is what steps in when everything else walks out. There are many things you learn not only about yourself but others during this time.
Certain words rip through souls. Doctors can roll the
letters off of their tongue with ease. Aids, HIV, and Cancer are said often. The
first thought is denial and emotions move on from there. Overtime the pain
slowly eases and acceptance starts to settle in. A new life with a diagnosis.
You learn things during
your illness and recovery. Many are revelations
that come from knowing the truth. It can be learning that all you once perceived
might be wrong. This blows like a breath
of fresh air in a twisted tornado of emotions. Thoughts always bring about a
change in life and perception of the world. Three things will reveal themselves
over time.
- Fear of failure will be diminished from your life. In the past you might have lived with the belief that attempting something and it not working is failure. You soon learn the only way to fail is to NOT try something. Suddenly your bucket list falls into place. The clock is ticking….. A list titled “I would love to_____” is quickly written. It could be skydiving or facing the conversation you have avoided for years.
- You must accept help from others. No person is an island and God did not design us to be all alone. Don’t suffer from the “I can do it all alone “syndrome. People who are true friends become very visible. All of your close friends and family will show their true shades. Some will be black, white and others in vivid color. The promises of visits, dinners and help either produce results or fall into the great abyss of broken promises. Never forget…A mouth can say anything but actions speak louder than words.
- Let Go and Let God. It is ok to cry, go ahead and bawl like a baby. This is nothing to be ashamed of tears of joy and sadness will fall . Don’t hold them back. Allow rivers to flow and write the word hope in them. Scream and cry out to God the question .....Why me? Tears roll most when you’re alone, in the middle of the night. Night has a way of being darker than black and silence is a very loud noise. When the sunshines in the window. A new day starts once more.
There are many of my
friends going through issues in this era of life. Some are facing challenges of
both mental and physical illnesses. In
1988 I danced with the the devil. It is something that I don’t dwell on but
would be lying if I said it left my mind.The experience allowed me to write this long overdue post...Strange...
Felt the need to write this
today, not sure why... Maybe it will make someone think a different way or make
a bucket list….. Time will tell….
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